Random Stuff

Just some thoughts I've been having. Random isn't really the truth. It's all about the little man and his impact on our lives.

Our amazing baby. Finn has been changing so much. He's starting to do this cute little whimper thing at night when he's hungry and he starts looking for the boob. It's funny because M. sleeps with him and he's not going to find what he's looking for there. I've also noticed that when he's hungry he'll cry until I take him toward the feeding station then he quiets down. He knows I'm the boob. Then as I'm lowering him onto the breastfeeding pillow, he starts to open his mouth and get ready to latch. He's saying "that's the good stuff, mommy!"

Yoga balls are good. I mean really good. We actually have two...one for the living room and one for the nursery. And I just bought a massive pump to make our lives easier...and because I broke our little one. I don't know how people had babies without yoga balls.

Breast feeding. Okay, I admit it. I'm actually starting to really enjoy breast feeding. It was so hard at first but as Finn's demands are lessening, I'm finding myself liking it. I'm glad it's becoming more enjoyable. There are still times when I just don't want to have to be the boob, but most of the time, it's alright. I'm finding myself thinking toward the future when he won't want to bf anymore with a little sadness.

Do I talk about something besides Finn? No. Not really. I assume this is part of taking care of such a vulnerable little life. You're wired to be obsessed. I know I've become intensely boring but I have a hard time caring. I hope my friends will stick around long enough for M. and I to pull out of it...like about a year.

I love meeting people. This is a strange development because I tend to be very inwardly focused and antisocial. People make me tired. Now I just love to meet other parents and other babies.

The bitch factor. For some reason, parenthood is making me mellow. Or maybe it's the Zoloft. Anyway, I am so much less of a bitch than when I was pregnant. People aren't actually annoying me as much as usual (see above...I actually LOVE MEETING PEOPLE now...strange). The world has become all hearts and flowers...I've become soft, and the worst part is that I just don't care.

Anyway, Finn is asleep and I'm going to try to accomplish doing one or two chores. Silly mommy, thinking she can actually get something done.