Those Sad Moments...

You know those moments...the ones when you realize how much your life has changed.

M.'s mom was looking at a picture of us from about ten years ago. She turned to M. and said...

"You look about the same. Sacha looks tired."

Wah.

I am tired. I've been tired since I decided to change careers and started working my butt off to get into nursing school. I've been tired since we started TTC and it ended up more difficult than expected. I was TIRED when I was pregnant and now...well, I'm tired. I nurse all night and I work long days.

You sacrifice to get what you want and I seem to have sacrificed my youth and vitality. As much as I want to ignore my dear MIL's words, she's right. And I don't know how to undo the fatigue. I've been tired for so long that I don't really know how to stop being tired.

So it's back to work for me. Back to the grind that I actually love and that supports my family. Maybe tonight I'll get a little better sleep and give me a couple days, I may not feel so worn out.

Just in time to do it all again.