The Return of DtD

DtD will be back in August.

Yikes.

We were sad when he left, devastated when he stayed longer than we'd expected.  Part of me feels like we've been sitting on hold, waiting for our family to finally be intact.

Everything has a good side to it and the good thing about the last two years is that we've gotten much closer to BF.  Finn LOVES Uncle BF.  I just can't imagine that coming about under any other circumstances.  

And the bad side.  Waiting.  Getting older.  M. feeling like her fertility is slipping away.  

In a couple months he'll be back and we'll start where we should have two years ago, and Finn will finally have a relationship with his donor.  It's funny because I would have never questioned how he would fit in if he'd never left.  Now I wonder where his place will be with M. and myself and Finn and Uncle BF.  I'm sure it will be okay, but part of me worries that DtD will be on the outside.  

He probably will, but I'm also sure we can make up for lost time.

This means we get to jump on the TTC wagon in the near future.  M. has said she doesn't want to share our journey as publicly this time.  It will be her body and I totally support her in doing what she needs to do to survive.  

And that is if we decide to TTC for #2.  Money is tight.  Our house is small.  I have no time for mat leave saved up.  We can't live on my salary.  We would have to have some serious conversations about what it would mean to have an only child, and for Finn to be an only child.

So, yikes double yikes.  Luckily toddlers are distracting creatures.