The Car Seat
We have a monster of a car seat in the back of our car now. M. installed it and it's a beast. Soon there will be a boy in that car seat. A boy! In the car seat!
What is up with that?
It's funny because you read about how happy you will be when you get that BFP, followed by sheer and utter fear about exactly what you've done. I never felt I got that fear. Until now.
What the hell have we done?
I'm still amazed every single day that I'm pregnant and that we're finally starting the family that M. and I have dreamed of for easily over ten years. I'm still amazed that we decided to get pregnant, found sperm and did it. Okay, it took eight tries, but we did it. We're FUCKING PREGNANT and in no time we'll FUCKING BE MOMS.
Wow.
Does this happen at the end? Do you end up feeling all contemplative but at the same time like you're standing on the edge of a precipice, about to tumble in? Is it your psyche telling you that you need a strange combination of pure and utter joy along with sheer terror to get through what is coming in just a matter of weeks?
Yes, all this because of the car seat in the back of our very tiny car.
posted by Sacha @ 4:16 PM
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6 Comments:
LoL :-) It's so funny the little things that set off the "Oh shit" trigger. Yes, this is exactly what happens at the end! I've done it 3 times and now with my 4th I STILL stop and look at the crib assembled and ready in my room and think...Holy shit there will be a sleeping child in that crib in a matter of weeks! :-)
heh, i did have that freak out following the BFP, and as we got closer to the EDD, i began freaking out again about our lives changing. forever. no going back.
and the carseat--i found it really weird to be driving around with it in the car for the few weeks before quinn arrived. i felt a little fraudulent and a little "hey, that person can see i have a carseat and then he/she must think i'm a mom. whoa." (as though everyone else on the road was constantly peering into my backseat) but it was weird! it took my peripheral vision a while to get to used to it, too.
LB will be here SOON!
I have recently found myself really freaking out. We are exactly 4 weeks behind you all. (It took us 8 months too. Freaky!) It is a boy too. My partner decided that our house was to small just as we finished the baby's room and it is now up for sale and we have a contract on a much larger home. Then I get news that my father has colon cancer. He had surgery to remove the tumor but still requires 6 months of chemo and radiation. My freak out factor came early on & I do believe that it will only get worse as time draws nearer. Especially once the car seat goes in my car.
Yes, I do that too! Both times at the end I thought, what are we doing?! I also thought, there is no way a tiny person will be BORN through me, the logistics simply don't work! LOL But they are both here, my tiny men, playing baseball constantly, jumping on the bed, and begging me to make them popcorn...
It felt more real with the car seat in the car, too. But really the freak out hit for me only when she was born and they handed her to me and I was all "what's up with this? You're just going to give this to me? What am I supposed to do with it?"
Going off Megan's comment, those last couple weeks with the car seat installed, I didn't feel like a fraud, but I felt like people would think I was a crazy child abuser... like they'd see the baby bucket in the back seat of a parked and overheated summer car and think I'd just left my baby in there... every time I'd park the car I would be afraid that someone would come yelling at me that I'd forgotten something...
I remember feeling a little frightened at the end. Like would I know what to do? What about in an emergency situation? I think it's normal. It's so surreal, even when Riley was placed on my chest after she was born, I couldn't believe she was here. :)
I still have to get a car seat in my car. We just have the one in Angele's car and so we're limited on who can drive where. :P
I wanted to respond to your question about "The Happiest Baby on the Block" which you posted about on our blog. Yep, we read it. And yep it works! We found that swaddling did help but we don't always use that part of it now. We found shushing to be the magic key to getting Riley to quiet down. That is the best part of the whole 5 S's. Sucking sometimes works--we used our fingers at first and now use a soother when needed. The movement is also key and putting her on the side or just changing her position helps. But yeah, we really liked that book and agree with the philosophy behind it. Riley always sleeps well on us and we know we aren't "spoiling" her at this age. :)
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