Day 11: Midnight Panic and Security Blankets

I woke up at midnight and my heart was beating so loudly I could hear it in my ears. I’d gone to bed perfectly calm but now…NOT CALM. I lay there for two hours until I finally woke M., whined A LOT and told her that the only way I could get back to sleep was to POAS RIGHT NOW.

So we did.

Negative.

But my urine was quite dilute. I think the whole test should be thrown out.

Day 11. Still no period. Still no spotting. Mild cramps this morning. And my temp is up. Things are still looking good. Lordy, I really NEED that BFP. I can’t imagine how bad this is going to hurt when we find out that I’m not pregnant.

We have a plan. I always need a plan. Plans are my security blankets in life. Unless my period shows up tomorrow, we’re going in for a beta on Thursday. We need to know if I’m preggers, or if I need to stop the progesterone so my period can rear its ugly head.