Worry, worry, worry...
I hate the worries.
Yesterday was my first day back at work after our BFP. I am the third person on my floor to be pregnant. Well, not anymore since I found out yesterday that the night nurse, who was about three weeks ahead of me, miscarried.
Does this mean I will miscarry too?
I had a very busy day yesterday with very little down time. I've had busier days, I've had much slower days. I was running pretty much non-stop. I didn't have a lot of time to drink my water. I didn't eat my snacks in a timely manner.
Did I work too hard?
I worry about symptoms. I'm still not very sick. I'm have occasional mild cramping. Shouldn't my breasts be more tender? Was that pink tinged pee? I was tired last night but not much more than usual after a shift. Am I not tired enough? I'm bloated, but maybe not as much as a couple days ago.
It's enough to drive a person NUTS.
Then I refocus. What are the biggies? Cramping and bleeding. Do I have that? Not more than the mild cramping I've been getting on and off since we conceived. No bleeding. Beta numbers were good. We're more likely than not, OKAY.
It's so hard not to worry when you worked so hard to get here.
We have our first appointment with Dr. G. tomorrow. Happy six weeks!
posted by Sacha @ 5:22 AM
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I know exactly how you feel. I'll be six weeks tomorrow, and my ob/gyn won't see me until I'm at least seven weeks along, so all I have to go on is a drugstore test and symptoms. Which leads to a lot of "am I nauseous enough? are my breasts tender enough? am I still pregnant?"
I completely understand I have been and am there myself. :) I have been told don't worry and just relax and let things happen. So that is what I am trying to do. I am sure you guys are fine. Yes women around you may miscarry but it was nature's way of saying this is not the right time. But as far as you go just let things happen and relax and enjoy this time that you have worked so hard for. And while yes that was easy to type I will be going through the same challenges of following my own advice. :)
It is so hard not to worry, especially when you aren't getting many symptoms. I had a couple of occasions prior to the first scan when I worked myself into a complete state, until I did the same as you do, and reminded myself that I didn't have cramping/bleeding, so I just had to trust that everything was going ahead as it should. And remind myself that stress was probably not good for the baby!
Also, I think that there's a big difference between just being busy at work/not taking time out, and actually doing something which could potentially cause miscarriage. Ultimately, I believe that if you are going to miscarry, it's generally because there is something wrong rather than it being caused by the mother, and you aren't going to be able to affect that sad outcome, should you be unlucky enough for it to occur.
Hope that you feel more reassured after tomorrow's doctor's appointment x x x
Enjoy feeling pretty good! I was worried like you and then the sickness began- I would have given anything to be able to worry about not being sick instead. You can still worry when you're sick, you know. Then you just have the added bonus of nausea!
You gals are doing great, as others said- try to enjoy it! My sister had almost no symptoms with her PG and my nephew is awesome and I have a niece on the way!
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You will worry throughout your whole pregnancy, that is just what happens. I would be worried if you didn't worry. Just take it one day at a time. We were so worried with Cam that I ended up in the ER twice. One with gas pain, and one with heart burn. When you are pregnant, you just can't take any chances, so worry!
It's terrible, I agree. I feel yuck a lot of the day, but then it goes away and I think the bad thoughts. And then, when I'm not worrying about miscarrying, I'm getting ahead of myself and worrying about birth defects. There will ALWAYS be something to worry about and it's exhausting.
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It's natural to worry. I do find that my worry has lessened now that I'm 12 weeks pregnant but believe me, you will always think, "Am I feeling enough? My breasts aren't as sore as those women's so maybe something's wrong!" No one is the same and mild symptoms just mean lucky you. I have a friend who had little more than fatigue. And you'll have good and bad days where the good days will give you cause for concern--did the signs stop? What's wrong!
As you said, I too think, "I'm not bleeding and/or cramping so why should I worry?" This stage is hard when you don't "feel" pregnant and you can't feel the baby move inside of you.
I received a handout from the clinic when I got my BFP which was kind of negative (all about miscarrying) but also reassurring. It went over and over the fact that the fall you had or the drink you drank didn't cause the miscarriage--it's most likely due to something wrong with the fetus. When the baby develops, if something is missing then your body most likely naturally aborts the fetus. This is RARE. Once you see that heartbeat your risk decreases a lot but you'll always worry. Just get ready for parenthood because the worrying never stops, right? ;)
I have had days where I worried that I overdid it physically or that I worked too hard at my job and got stressed. It's hard to adjust to being pregnant and it's hard to take it easy sometimes. And sometimes you don't have a choice. Think of it this way, women stay pregnant and give birth in harsh conditions with a lot more physical hardship than we endure in North America! Women give birth after using drugs or alcohol through out the entire pregnancy. If those babies can survive than why not ours--the ones we are so careful to keep inside. You just have to live like you're going to carry to term and try and put the negativity behind you because that will drain you. Easier said than done.
I know several people who had miscarriages but think of it this way--out of the number of women you know in life or online, look at how many carry to term. It is unlikely that you will miscarry and you just have to believe in that. If it happens, there is nothing you could've done to prevent it. We have so little control really. Just take care of yourself and keep thinking happy thoughts. :)
First of all, CONGRATU-FREAKIN-LATIONS!
I got behind on all my blogs, and looked what happened!!!! When I got caught up a couple of nights ago and learned that you two were In The Family Way, I cried.
Anyhow. I spotted the entire first trimester with James. I had practically nonexistent HCG levels, so low that I didn't get a positive POAS test until five weeks after conception. Then with Sarah, my early levels were so high that they told me it was probably twins.
So what I learned from that was to ignore everything but my intuition.
Oh, and eat the peanut butter for godsake. I avoided it the first time around because my little bro is allergic, but I craved it so badly, I'm sorry I deprived myself.
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